"Deviant for 4 years"... maybe it was time to write a journal entry?
I completely abandoned dA over the last year (even more). I thought that moving to London would make me hyper productive but it didn't. Good thing is that this time I wasn't spending on dA, I was spending it actually living.
Back in France, I was putting all my energy either in studying or in imagining a meaningful life.
Then... September 22nd, 2010. Walking into London St. Pancras station, listening to "Do You Want It All" by Two Door Cinema Club, feeling, for the first time, like my life was some kind of movie. The beginning.
Now seventeen months passed and I am a completely different person. Experienced things and feelings I had never experienced before. Finally done with the storm of adolescence. (But far from being an adult. Actually I think I got back to childhood.)
I'm thinking about deleting lot of my deviations, because most don't match my sensitivity anymore. And even thought about deleting my account. Yes because being a "Deviant" for 4 years enabled me to see dA evolving. And the most striking evolution is that when I joined dA, I was feeling highly humble because I thought I was a complete amateur compared to the amazing artists who were part of the dA community. If they weren't professionals, people using dA at the time were definitely artists or at least, some kind of creative thinkers. Now it's filled with people randomly using illustrator or photoshop, often on artworks which are not even theirs.
Sure the amazing Deviants remain, but I don't know, something went away.
I won't delete my dA account now, I still love browsing so much. But I don't know if I'll have the motivation to submit all the pictures that I took over those last 17 months.
Nevertheless, I now have a Tumblr (amyissilly.tumblr.com/). Back to blogging!
I don't know if even one of my very few watchers will read this, but thank you if you ever took the time to do it.
Chill out, eat a kiwi.